Come Together…Right Now.

community linking hands_136056599There have been two events in the last week that have brought deep calm and hope to me where I didn’t know hope was missing.  I hadn’t realized how much the news had been weighing on me. I’ve felt a responsibility to watch it, read it, try to understand it– but I think that the current state of this country has been breaking me down from the inside out.  Hard.  And I now know I’m not alone.

For the most part, I keep my political orientation to myself, but I realized this week, that the breakdown I’ve been feeling transcends partisan opinions or beliefs.  It is a deep wound of disorientation.  Of assault on what I believe is the basic goodness of people in general and leaders in specific.  And I see now that our collective is feeling it to the bone.  Bone on bone.  Late night TV isn’t even that funny.  I watch it as a nightly relief, and yes I laugh…but lately, I sort of want to cry at the jokes too.  I feel…despair.

I’m a bucker-upper.  A glass-half-full kinda gal.  A this-too-shall-pass person.  So this despair thing is something new and I dearly and desperately don’t want it to become my new normalIn this last week of hope, I’ve realized that I want to/need to feel like I belong to something that is a firmament of integrity and goodness.  I need to trust-fall into that firmament and know it will catch me and hold me and let me give it my faith.

That happened to me this week.  Twice.  I want to share a bit of it with you so that you know, in case you’ve forgotten, that it’s possible.  But it doesn’t happen by accident.

Hope #1 (not in this order)

I spent the morning of December 5th like many of us did:  watching the George H. W. Bush memorial service.  Politics aside, the sum of its parts blind-sided me with overwhelming sobbing.  Reverie.  A deep internal bowing.

I couldn’t stop it.  I didn’t want to stop it.  There was a fierce intuitive understanding that I needed to cry those tears.  Watching that grief-struck family in that hallowed American hall, with those old hymns and military overtures, those speeches and the appropriate laude and honor…it was clear to me that we were mourning a good man.  The man that was being mourned and honored represents something that I hold dear, and that is the importance of a strong, good, leader who loved his wife, his family, his country, and who believed in kindness and even gentleness.  Who came from an era of loyal patriots that didn’t whine or blame or boast or spew morass.

It brought me back to the rooting of my childhood when I stood in church next to my father and harmonized on hymns and held his liver-spotted hand and played with his soft blue veins and looked at his high white thumb moons and knew that he was the gentleman he was because of his hard work, his WW II pull-yourself-up-by-your-bootstraps way of showing up, his values, his ethics, his common decency, his dedication to his family, his job, his community, his fellow human.  I hear his “Shoulders back, Munson” every day, especially when I need courage.

I believed in those things because of him and the other class-act gentlemen I was raised with from that era.  I cried because I miss them.  They’re dying off.  And in this daily incineration of our hearts by the nightly news…I just want to believe in our country and feel like I can trust-fall into it like I did even then, again, politics aside.  Watching that funeral, I realized that I have never felt more vulnerable and heart- sick as an American, than I do right now.  I long for unity.  I have never seen such division and while I try not to focus on it, how can you not feel its corrosion of the collective?  It’s everywhere.  Remember Hands Across America?  I want to link arms, whatever is your politics, and be good together.  I believe in our central goodness.  My father did too.  He raised me to believe in it, to look for it, to be it.

As I watched those speeches and listened to the Episcopal liturgy of my youth, the bible verses and hymns, I wept.  Sobbed.  Smiled through tears.  One of my very favorites:  O God, our help in ages past.  I sang/hummed along to every verse of it.  I cried at the soprano descants.  The altos grounding it.  But mostly I cried because I saw a family there, grieving their legendary patriarch.  And giving us our own grief to mourn as patriots.  Not divided.  For a few hours, I forgot who our president is, what crazed gun-slinging madman or natural disaster has just devastated a community.  We were crying good tears.  Together.  And I believe that we were grieving not just a man, but our unity.

Tom Brokaw said it so well, holding back tears, just after the service:

“I’ve never seen one that had such an important message that was so far reaching. It was an Episcopalian ceremony with an ecumenical message.  And the message was about faith and hope, but family and values.  About dedication to, not just your family, but your country as well.  And to know WHEN you have to cross the aisle and pull together.

…I think for a lot of people this was a distillation of a message that we all need to hear.  …We ought to be thinking about the message that we heard here today.”

Hope #2


I also felt that trust-fall into hope in a home in Palm Springs, CA last week, in celebration of two wildly talented women:  an author, and a musician, brought together by an Emmy award winning journalist.  They were having dinner one night, and they decided to celebrate with an intentional gathering of kindreds.  We came from all over—fifty women.  We came with our hearts in our hands, and we came without wanting things from one another, other than community, inspiration, and loving connection.

We were welcomed with the invitation to put down our phones and connect with one another, have those conversations that we all need to be having, in person, looking into each others’ eyes.  We were promised that each person was specially chosen to be at this celebration and that as a result, we were with kindred sisters.

I put any residual adolescent PTSD aside and spent the day trust-falling into each circle of women, and like-wise, holding them as they trust-fell into my circles.  It was an Us Us.  All day.  Hiking through Indian Canyon, eating delicious food, hanging by the pool and hot tub, and all the way through to dress-up evening clothes, and Happy Birthday, and for some of us, late night shenanigans.

Every single one of these women felt like an immediate sister to me.  We all knew that we are highly sensitive people, prone to high-octane empathy and sometimes overwhelm, and we did it anyway.  We trusted each other and we told each other our stories and we tried to find meaning and hope in what feels so painful in our national collective– though we spoke less about that pain, and more about the hope.  And we freaking laughed and played like fifty of the best playmates you may or may not have had as a child.  Or in high school.  Or college.  Or even with your current friends.  But we didn’t talk about what we didn’t have.  We talked about how we wanted more of this!

At one point, I turned to a writer friend who has done my Haven Writing Retreat in Montana, our toes wiggling in the warm pool like little girls, and I said, “We are all fluent in this language.  And yet we so rarely speak it.”  She nodded, smiling, and said, “Write that down.”  Which is what I am constantly saying at Haven.  It was so nice to be told it!   So I did, and here it is.  Let’s memorize it.  We are all fluent in this language of connection, and yet we so rarely speak it.  It really is…our Mother tongue.

By the end of the evening, all of us sitting on the floor, eating, laughing, throwing out our arms or putting our palms together as we shared our truth, sometimes touching without meaning to and not apologizing for it, like one organism, moving our appendages in an alchemistic equilibrium, our hostess stood up and called out:  “Shall we meet again next year?!”  And we all hooted and hollered, “YES!”

I kept finding myself saying, “I’m so happy.  I haven’t been happy like this in a long long time.”  It was a surprise because I’m happily with groups of women all the time.  But ‘tis true that we need to receive as much as we give, to make a whole, effective person, and a whole effective heart.

So there it is:  we’re STARVED for connection.  LOVING, supportive, raw and real…connection.  I know this as the author of a memoir, and as the leader of retreats because I hear over and over again messages of gratitude for helping people know that they’re not alone.  But I didn’t realize that I’ve forgotten this as a woman, away from a leadership position.  Everyone in that room is in a leadership role in her life.  And everyone in that room was happy to leave it for the day.  I was so happy not to lead.  To listen and take it all in, and say things in a way that doesn’t have to be quotable or learnable or teachable.  Just to truly…let it all hang out.  Let it all fall back.  Not lean in.  Fall back…in trust and true connection with no agenda except for the hope of feeling known and knowing with our empathy as our guide.

So what I know of hope right now, is the feeling of falling into it and trusting that there are people who can hold you, just as you promise to hold them.  In total health and harmony, heart, and yes hope.  A more kind and more gentle nation…indeed.

I want to thank the women for taking their dinner trio think tank/love-fest, fifty-fold.  I want to thank the nation for stopping this week for a few hours to feel unified.  I want to thank you for reading this and for picking up your lone hand and placing it in the palm of another’s.  We can do this…together.  We have to.  No choice.  We are the UNITED States of America, after all.

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7 Responses to Come Together…Right Now.

  1. Linda Miller

    Thanks so much for sharing this beautifully (Whoops – an adverb!) written, heartful expression of what so many of us are feeling! I also watched every minute of George Bush’s services and cried my way thru it all, with love and remembrances of the deep connections with people and experiences from days gone by, but never forgotten. I am determined to follow my true connections as my guiding points of light from now on – May deep connections light your path!

  2. Great moments for you last week which translate into some important thoughts I agree the funeral ironically was a time of rejoicing and coming together in the spirit of remembering a “kinder, gentler” time. It was shelter from the national storm.
    Women are the best speakers of truth and when asked to come together never fail each other. What a great time you had! Wish I was there.

  3. Hi dear Laura! Loved your writings today…wish I could muster the kind of acceptance and hope you seem to have found. There were moments during the Bush services etc whenI felt it, but it was primarily because what I heard in most of those comments was a gentle denunciation of everything that the Trump presidency has been. I pray that this country comes back to its senses, through the people who seem to be in the decision-making positions these days. If that is the voters who still turn a blind eye to the inappropriate behavior, or the evangelical extreme Republicans in congress who are willing to go along with someone despite his obvious “personhood” who they believe will enforce their issues, though he represents every trasngression their religion forbids. I’m totally befuddled by this country at this moment in time, and am one of those people a bit befuddled by the whole world’s shift to the right, if the truth be known. I found recently my father’s prescious little hand-written diary that he took with him when he went off to war in August of 1942.. it was written “to Sally”….who was 2 years old at the time…war, the miliary, does not solve all problems, and certainly our activity of providing bombs and weapons to madmen doesn’t solve, but rather supports problems and tragedies. But the dignity of the men of my father’s era, of YOUR father’s era… where are those men today? They mostly are not in public office, except for a rare few. OH dear. My rant for the day. I miss you. I need the wilds of Montana again. XOXXO

  4. Sandra

    Thank you, Laura, for articulating thoughts that have been beating on the inside walls of my heart. This week has been a tough one; I’ve experienced betrayal and fragility and doubt and deep frustration in my work, but … in the end (because I’m a buck-up boot-strapper too!) I’ve come back around to assurance and empowerment — and a deeper understanding that trust IS what it is all about.

    With it in hand, sorted, appreciated, and shaken back out — the way to creativity and love and purpose become clear again.

  5. Dottie Bradford

    Dear Laura Munson,
    Thank you for your “letter” and sharing at the Haven. Its the first time I have read your blog. Blessings and safety on your trip to Morocco. I spent yesterday at Barnes and Noble which I normally try to avoid as I am a bookaholic and yes, I write (journal) every day, am in a writing group, but have never published. I do not blog, so today decided to do that. I think, I once, several years ago sent an e-mail to a friend about his wonderful writing. My computer is up and running which it hasn’t been for a very long while. A pen or pencil is always available. We write because we enjoy it – or we can’t do otherwise, even when the words fall to the floor.
    I bought Charles Krauthamer’s book “The Point Of it All”. Physically disabled, he is truly a man gifted with joy and humor and his whole life was spent writing (even as a medical student). I also bought Ken Mansfield’s book “The Roof- the Beatles’ Final Concert”. January 30, 1969. An incredible book about one day. Yes, a whole book about one day. Easy reading. Krauthamer’s book is thick and not so easy reading. Both books were $28 each. Both fascinating, both very different. I went to bed at 1:00 a.m. Simply a mark in time, not a sentence of momentous value.

    I’ve seen the Haven’s advertisements off and on . I’ve spent a lot of time in Montana and love it but it is unlikely I will be able to attend workshops. I avoid electronics as much as I can. On December 18, I will be 88. I do see all those 8′s, but I am not a numerologist. 8′s mean “new beginnings” my wish for you.

    This morning I read Amy Carmichaerl’s word’s, “we aren’t called to be successful, we are called to be faithful”, and “Lord, You never forget me, even though I often forget You. I am Your project.” (She worked in India.) I just happily putter around. The hair on both of our heads are counted. It was relaxing to realize I am Not my Own project. I hope this gives you courage and peace.

    There always have been chaotic times in our world and we often try to find someone or something unto which we can pin our dismay. It doesn’t work. We all have “down” days. There is sadness and anger, and the world does seem to be spining, but there is also love everywhere, everyday. Even in a concentration camp. There’s an angel in there somewhere.

    It’s wonderful that you are in community. Look up, and rejoice. Have warm holidays with hugs, (you may have to do the hugging- just choose someone that needs it and be careful) and new beginnings in 2019! My love to all of you, happy writing – even if no one ever reads it. Good news, “The world continues to turn on its axis.” Dottie Bradford, a grandmother.

  6. I too have taken great hope in community. Bruce and I joined a concerned citizens group fighting a destructive industry, and we were able to get our county board to listen to us, and put restraints around it, that protect us. We patiently attended meetings, wore stickers, testified, put up signs, talked to our board members. It was amazing to see that quiet power that allowed us to be heard and to change things.

    Thank you for being quiet about politics because you have fans that see things differently than you, and who are important. I’m not buying a formerly favorite author’s books any more because of her snarky comments in her blog. (This was pre Trump.) And I’m finding it hard to read another favorite author’s books after reading his opinions. So it’s refreshing that you are mostly quiet about this. Even in this post there is a gentleness.

    Personally I think that we deserve Donald Trump, that he grows directly out of our culture and that we need to clean up our own acts on most of the levels that we find troubling about him. Andrew Sullivan wrote an insightful essay that you might find interesting about how politics is our new religion and how they don’t have the thousands of years of wisdom that the great religions have.

    I too have been obsessed with politics, as if I’m watching a slow motion train wreck. It’s not good. I want to turn toward being present in nature, listening to it, and reading books, and letting my well fill up…Just picked up Long Obedience in the Same Direction by Eugene Peterson, to read for Advent.

    At any rate it’s good to hear your voice in these blogs again.

  7. Melody Ward

    I am currently reside in Akron, Ohio where I work as a Chaplain. I am a member in discernment – Ordination track for the UCC (United Church of Christ).
    Completed my MDiv at Andover Newton in May 2015. I am very interested in learning more about my writing voice. I would like to apply for one of the writing retreats. Please let me know what my next steps might be. Thank you & much Peace. Melody

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