Signs, Designs, Italy

(for Melinda)
People say that there are no coincidences. I profoundly and purely believe that sometimes. Other times, I think it’s an overly-convenient way of thinking. And sometimes I want to believe it more than others. Sometimes we are looking for signs.

I spent most of August in Italy. I went this time not needing to prove myself in museum knees. Or postcards. Or checked-off lists and well-obeyed itineraries. I went with my friend and daughter and I went to receive the gift of a “victory lap” after a few years promoting my memoir. I went to eat, pray, love. (sorry, couldn’t help myself).

And whether you believe in the power of intention or the manifestation of intention or signs or divine design…I will tell you this: A sculpture followed me. Dare I say stalked me. I started to imagine what it is to have Heaven dance and clap and rejoice in a human’s awakening to a great mysterious power not being at all mysterious. I started to believe in angels.

If you ask a surgeon if you need surgery, that surgeon will likely say yes. If you ask a writer if books are important, he or she will say yes. If you ask an art historian where you could have full frontal and even mystical experiences with art, they might direct you to Italy. If you say you love sculpture, they’ll tell you to go to the Loggia in the Piazza Signoria in Florence. That’s the side of my mind that thinks in overly-convenient thought patterns, justifying what happened this August in Italy. Here’s the other side:

I swear, I didn’t mean to have this happen. I swear I went to eat browned butter and sage ravioli. I swear, I actually don’t pay that much attention to sculpture. I like canvas and paper, ink and paint. The closest to three dimensional that has sung to my heart has been relief sculpture. Not exactly emergent creatures. But not this time.

This time, from Milan, to Florence, to Pietrasanta, I was shoulder to shoulder with every sculpture I encountered. The marble tears. The marble folds in robes and skin. The toes which are all of our toes, wedded to the earth and our pain and loss and fear and consciousness of our non-marble mortality. In museums, piazzas, street corners, and chin-to-the-sky encounters with bell towers, I wept with the collective non-marble We mirrored in the marble We. I saw my whole life in those sculptures. Every emotion like my life flashing before me, like they say about the moments before death. Like they say about no coincidences.

And still, there was one sculpture in particular that followed me. Like it would not let go. Like it had something to tell me.

Michelangelo believed the sculpture was in the marble waiting to be released. He released it. I received it. But this was not Michelangelo. This was Lorenzo Bartolini.

I first saw this sculpture on a plaque on a wall in the Poldi Pezzoli in Milan. It was commissioned by the lady of the house to show her grief after her husband’s death. Its rawness and courage spoke to me. The very expression of what it would be to fully claim your emotional truth…in marble. Its power and its presence were large in its physical absence, as the sculpture was touring in a show in the Accademia in Florence. I bought the postcard to remind me of the power of this sculpture I’d likely not see. I’d put it on my writing desk. I’d look to her powerful emotional choice in my own emotional choices– buoyed by her sadness and yet released in her marble. I promptly forgot the name of the sculptor.

Then a friend arranged for me to go to a private family gallery in Florence. The Romanelli gallery. She thought it was beautiful and full of history—two things I love. She told me little else. I went. I went with my daughter. As the owner of the gallery, the lovely Rubina, was showing me around, I was sorting out my intrigue with the feeling of sacred space, the presence of the place of creation with the place of exhibition, the information she was giving me, the pointing of my daughter’s hand—everything slow motion. I heard and sensed: originally a church. A family of sculptors. Famous. Major museums. Multi generations. 1860. Rodin was friends with Romano Romanelli. They shared the same model, Isadora Duncan. Camille Claudel used to walk in and out of the studio. Rodin. Camille Claudel. Early influencers of my life as an artist. Pilgrimage to the Rodin museum in Paris. Rilke’s home. Rilke. Early influencer of my life as an artist. And there was a bronze of Isadora Duncan in the corner.

And then my daughter pointed with fervor. “There it is!” There was the sculpture that lived at the Poldi Pezzoli in Milan, that was out on tour at the Accademia. Only rough.

“It’s the original plaster,” Rubina told me.

And I replayed her gallery tour. She’d said that after it was a church, it was the studio of a famous sculptor.

“Bartolini,” she said. “There’s a show of his work at the Accademia right now. That sculpture is on exhibit. It’s a portrayal of a woman’s grief.”

“I know,” I said.

“This was his studio. He created that sculpture here. In that room. This is its plaster counterpart.”

I walked in and out of the studio. I tried to feel the flesh behind the marble.

The next day my daughter and I went to the Accademia. Not to see David. I’ve spent hours admiring David. We went to see the grieving woman. Her toes so folded underneath the heft of her body and the heft of her grief. Her head so heartbroken and almost-hopeful. I wept.

How are we released?

How are we held captive?

How are we to receive the legacy of messages? Is Heaven really clapping its hands when we pay attention?

And further, what do I need to learn about grief? That it is made of marble and flesh? That it does not go away? That it is holy? And naked. And even beautiful?

What are our lessons? Who are our teachers? What is right before our very eyes that we cannot see?

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9 Responses to Signs, Designs, Italy

  1. Kathy

    So glad you enjoyed your time in Italy! Welcome back! I knew I missed your cyber presence, but didn’t know how very much until now. After reading this blog entry I realize how much I devour the richness of your thoughts, feelings and words.

    Seems as if we have both have had a recent love affair with the beauty that lives within the element of stone. Yours marble, mine the red rocks of Sedona. Both captivated our minds and souls and transported them on an incredible journey.

    I too believe that there are signs that appear and reappear. You must be open to the message. While in Sedona I saw so many heart shaped rocks, cactus and clouds! On our first morning hike the the sun gave way to clouds and then rain. I was severely underdressed in shorts and a tank top and had not packed a jacket in my backpack. I am the person who eats ice cream in the summer and then has to put on a jacket to get warm. However, that morning while so many of my fellow hikers were shivering…..I was not cold at all. I think I may have released that last piece of coldness that was residing in the bottom chamber of my heart.

    I am so glad that the elegant image that came to life in the marble touched you. Those things that have a profound affect upon us contain a message within. I know you heard it!

  2. Words. Tears. Feelings. I always knew that the chamber of my heart was a multi-tasking biological unit. But sometimes it takes two amazing women to really put it in perspective. Like Kathy, I too have missed Laura’s cyber presence. Welcome back!

  3. Jan Larson Myhre

    Moments accumulating. The grieving widow emerges as a sign. In my world I call such happenings “a God touch.” It’s as if you were cradled in the hands of God and all the gods of Italy. Amazing. Welcome back.
    ps: Your book is one of my book club’s selections this year at my suggestion. I know they will love it as much as I do.

    • lauramunson

      Thank you for letting me know, Jan. And for sharing my book. I’m so glad it found you. Please give your group my very best. yrs. Laura

  4. Laura this is so beautiful, a marble tear and stone revealing so much emotion – people band around the phrase ” being in the right place at the right time ” without any thought of what may be behind it – i am so glad you were there and had the words to express what you felt – a gift.

    • lauramunson

      Tracy, thanks for your kind words and for GETTING it. I really believe that there are no coincidences these days. That means YOU are the gift. yrs. Laura

  5. When you seek, the universe (or God) does give a response. You lady of grief was what you needed asked for at the time. Many times, we don’t recognize how we are begin given responses to our longing, questions and prayers.

    Great piece. I can see why you like the statue. I’d love to go to northern Italy. It’s so full of history including the home of many of the most famous artists. Hm… would two weeks in Scotland and Ireland and two in Italy allow me the time to see all the thing I want to see.? Need to start planning that trip.

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